So I Thought I Was Scared Before...

My doctor told me that I had to have a mammogram before next month to make sure that there wasn't anything wrong pre-surgery. So I went in yesterday and had it done (they freakin' hurt by the way, I wanted to cry), and they found something inside me, some sort of a mass on the left hand side. The doctor didn't seem really worried about it, which was kind of reassuring, but in the few seconds after the image came up on the ultrasound screen, I have never felt that scared in my life. I felt my stomach drop and my hands went numb, I was terrified. They scheduled a biopsy for today and I went and had it done, they gave me vicodin which made me very loopy and then I watched on the ultrasound screen again while the doctor took a sample of the mass (which was actually interesting to see). I spent the rest of today pretty much knocked out at mom and dad's house. They said it would be about a week before they knew anything, so now all I can do is wait...

I'm Pretty Much Scared Out of My Mind

So, back in July I went to see a plastic surgeon and have a pre-approval sent to my insurance company about having breast reduction surgery, and a couple a days ago I got a call...and I was approved. I'm absolutely terrified and excited at the same time. I've never had any kind of surgery before and I don't know how I'll handle it. On the other hand, I am so tired of the constant pain is my back, neck and shoulders - I want to be able to have a day when something doesn't hurt. My family and friends were upset that I didn't tell them I was thinking about the surgery, but I didn't wan't anyone to know...just in case it wasn't going to happen. I'm so happy that it's finally going to happen, I'm ready for a change.